Life in an Instant

Damn, April. You came and went in a blur of nights out, fancy lunches and epic dueling.

I decided that instead of doing weekly Instagram posts I would do monthly ones. It's kind of nice seeing the entire month in one view. We'll see how it works out.

April was spent as a trial and error period for my life. It's still really hard trying to move on through life without grandma around. Little things make us remember her and we get sad for a bit before someone distracts the others. Normal isn't any closer than it was in March coming home, but I feel like it might be. I have to keep reminding myself that she wouldn't want us to fall apart and so we try our best not to. At the same time, I have to keep reminding myself that she's no longer alive. It's a weird transitioning period that I think is going to drag itself out rather than resolve itself faster.

I will admit that I did have a bad week where I realized there was no chance in saving my grades in school and proceed to drink my woes away and stay out late every night. I couldn't tell you what drew me out of my funk, but I'm glad it did. Throwing myself into rewatching old shows, getting hardcore into Magic: The Gathering, and rereading some of my favorite Harry Potter fanfiction definitely helped. I even managed to get another chapter up for the story I started back in November for NaNoWriMo.

With all the things coming up later this month, I have a feeling that this month's Instafeed is going to be quite interesting.